Ahhhh, just needed to get this off my chest and get on with life.
I feel weird, like emotionally weird. It's either that or my mind is just messing with me psychologically. I hope it's not the later because that would only mean that I'm turning crazy. That thought frightens me quite a bit. .____.
Been having this stuffy feeling in the middle of my throat like as if it's closing up but I can still breathe perfectly fine. It's an odd feeling. I dunno whether it's the built-up stress or something else.
I sometimes also feel a weird squeeze of my heart. Ok lah, I probably know what the heart thing means but I dunno whether it's related to the throaty feeling.
I'm in a bind, it's a 40/60 decision. 40 % of me wants to get rid of it quickly but the other half refuses to. I'm so confuseeedddd. D: I don't think it's a bad feeling but it's confusing. It's confusing to not know and tiring to feign ignorance but come now, which sane person would go out of her way to pronounce to the world about an unconfirmed feeling?
Haven't had any panic attacks lately so I guess that's a pretty good sign but I can feel one coming up reaaaal soon. I'll be getting my STPM results next thursday. Crap, I can just feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I'm gonna shamelessly cry on that day but I dunno whether it'll be happy or depressed tears. Let's hope that it's the former because I really can't handle disappointment kindly.
All my thoughts are just all jumbled up now. Grrrrr, I should start doing my pa assignment. I should, I really should. :(
